February 2010
I can't stand the wait.
I get a call, and all I can hear is sobbing.
It absolutely tears my heart out. I want to run over and help, I want to be there for you. I want to call you, but I don’t want to get you hurt. I want this all to go away!
I can’t just sit back while you could be hurting or injured, and know that there’s nothing I can do to help! I can’t just… be idle!
It’s the...
January 2010
Parents
They seem to ruin a lot of things. Things like late night talks with someone you care about.
Those sorts of things.
I’ve tried like twenty times to write this correctly!
And each time sucked.
Because it can’t contain how MONUMENTAL AWESOME what has happened is.
*smiles*
BUT I’LL DO IT TOMORROW I PROMISE KTHX.
Sleep well. :D
Here’s a song for the nights I think too much, and Here’s a song… when I imagine us together. Here’s a song for when we talk too much, and I forget… my words.
Heaven can wait! Up high in the sky, it’s you and I! Heaven can wait, deep down in your eyes! I’m yours, tonight! Lay your heart next to mine! I feel so alive! Tell me you want me to stay,...
They fit!
I was all worried one would be too small, or the first meeting would be awkward or something but…
Oh man, they fit, and THEY SERIOUSLY FIT WELL! :D
YEAH!
<333333
That just made my day, and week, sorta, cuz you made my week earlier, but… I MEAN YEAH!! :D
WOOOOOOO!
So I was really worried about losing our best way to talk and see each other.
But I think it’ll be okay, now.
:3
I think everything will just be okay.
<3
I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING
THAT WAS SO FUNNY, I ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOUR FAMILY, HAHAHA
<333
And you really don’t need to be so embarrassed, I find it so cute. :3
:3
That was so fun. <3
Heh.
Today… overall failure?
No, not by a long shot.
In fact… I think I had fun.
By all rights, I shouldn’t have, though. I got to stand outside with people I don’t really know watching all my friends crowd around my ex while she made out with her boyfriend, which isn’t nearly as much fun as it sounds. They finally left, and then I was kinda bored for the next hourish,...
I
missed
you.
*laughs*
This is so much FUN!
The World
The world just works sometimes.
:D
And finally, finally it does.
<3
I want to write about what happened.
I want to make this post just as special and amazing as these events.
But it is 4 in the morning.
And I’m tired as hell.
So expect something tomorrow.
Or sometime.
Whatever. :D :D :D
WHY AM I SUDDENLY AWKWARD?
As a great a night as this was, now I feel like I miss you more, and…
Obstacles. Go fuck yourselves. >.<
Oi! I hope this takes off.
No, I’m not awkward.
I’m just reactionary. Which is now a word.
Overall, though, it was a good night. A good day, really. Slept some (not really, 5 1/2 hours), COH/COV for a while, then saw Led Zeppelin...
I wrote haikus all day today. This would’ve been way more awesome if I wasn’t so terrible at writing them.
The Colors Orbit Her Body So Gracefully Staining The Air Green
I Am An Artist Unconventional And Free I Paint In The Sky
My Pencil’s Soft Scritch Wakes Him On This Silent Night “Go To Fucking Sleep!”
Red Hair Cascading Flowing Out In Front Of Me Somehow Out...
I don’t want to go to school today.
I want to stay home to level my villain.
There has got to be something wrong with me.
So exams started Friday
But I wasn’t there.
I was at home. Not talking.
I had contracted laryngitis.
It was hell. Haha, it still kinda is. But… some good came of it. I got mah best friend Mara to start playing City of Heroes/Villains, which I may add is a totally boss game, and she’s really addicted to it, too! This has made my life so much more awesome these past few days! I...
City of Heroes
It’s like…
It’s like AIM.
But instead of just sending back and forth smiles, you’re beating the shit out of random passersby during the conversation. It’s wonderful!
This has to have been the best afternoon sick I’ve ever had, haha. :D
Please, please, please don’t say something like that when I am standing right behind you.
Yes, I know you’re friends with her. No, that doesn’t bother me.
What bothers me is
“Hey, you sexy beast!!”
I am not over what happened. And you ignoring me for half a day followed by that does not help your standing with me right now!
For the love of God, think!
A Short Letter Written To My Own Brain
Okay, so listen. I’ve noticed you stopped working. That’s not going to look good on your resume. How on earth will you ever be re-elected? You’re hardly doing your job anymore. You’re just kinda letting the rest of the body do whatever each part feels like doing in a much less perverted way that this sentence implies. But mostly, you stopped watching my heart.
The hell...
Hey!
Stop talking down to yourself!
Ya know why?
Because you are fucking awesome.
Like, seriously. You’re worth more than you’re giving yourself credit for, and you don’t need to worry about the future. Just focus on what you want and need for today, and if the future starts to look bleak, we change the now to shape the future.
Mkay?
So, please don’t worry? I hate...
Hey.
Fuck You.
Kthx.
Wow
Yeah, so I had an alright day at school, sportin’ mah new doo, failing tests, ignoring homework, all that jazz. And that was all good and fun, but…
I spent the night at Mara’s watching the ENTIRE first season of Avatar: The Last Airbender. We hung out, gave commentary, made fun of hair loopies, were attacked by Freddie, compared characters to IRL people, and overall just had an...
Hair.
OH. Right. I got my hair dyed.
It is now black and purple.
Yeah. Be jealous.
“I wish I could cross my arms, and cross your mind.
‘Cause I believe...”
– Adam Young (Owl City)
Mara. You freakin' rock ass.
So, my post from last night was all depressing and whatnot (gasp. surprise ending).
My walk to school this morning was slightly more saddening this morning because of yesterday’s events, so I was pretty down.
But then… like, I got to school, and I was talking with everyone, and Mara handed me a note. I was like “Question Mark?” and she’s like read it.
So I did.
It...
Awesome day.
Did almost all my homework in class. Just really good stuff. Was kinda low in 5th and lunch, but macaroni art (In high school. Wow!) in Biology brought me back up. Brittany wasn’t mean to me in Chinese, which made me so incredibly happy, haha. Still won’t friend me on facebook, though, for whatever reason. :[
Anyway. That was all good.
Until after school, when things...
Is going to stop thinking about everything, or put a fucking hole in my head if I can’t. I can’t stand you and your shit.
New Year
I also remember, when I was very young, the New Year being a time where my family would get together and have a good time. We’d sit together, maybe let the kids have some alcohol, kiss at midnight, just spend time together.
The magic of childhood.
So how does this year pass?
It feels like New Year came in the exact way that the past one acted. My brother was oblivious to the world,...